Not long ago, I was laid off as the web maintenance and marketing department for a machinery vibration analysis company. I have never really been in to machinery…at all…but it was a job. It was a small company, hence the reason I was the head of the marketing department…and the only person in the marketing department. After I was laid off, I hosted a party of self – deprecating thoughts. Old, traditional thoughts, new up and coming thoughts…they ALL came…it was quite the rager.
Spokesperson #1 for the New Up and Comers:
“If she had been any good at marketing machinery vibration solutions, she would have brought more money to the company, and they would have kept her…to market MORE machinery vibration solution stuff”
Spokesperson #2 for the Up and Comers:
Yes, she may not have enjoyed trying to promote enthusiasm for tachometers…and may not even know what a tachometer is, but she would have been able to pay off her student loans in as little as 52 years. How can she possibly support herself and pay them off , now?
Spokesperson for the Older thoughts:
“True, True! And, she failed miserably at her attempt to get into grad school. She may have gotten the all time worst math score in the history of the GRE math scores, and her brother is a doctor… She has always been so bad at math, she probably won’t ever be able to do anything! There was that D she got on that 8th grade math test…and speaking of 8th grade, she didn’t make the volleyball team, either…and…
Just then, another, perhaps stronger part of me (whom I like to refer to as “BAD ASS AMY”), magically appeared in a sparkly bubble like Glinda the good witch (pssst…I forcefully willed her to make an appearance). She reminded all the other thoughts that Amy may not have won the Nobel Prize for marketing machinery vibration solutions, and she may be downright awful at math, but she has succeeded at several things, too. This can’t be the end of her. All the other thoughts stopped and listened as she said:
“What if this is a good thing”? They groaned as if to protest the idea that getting laid off from any kind of company, even a machinery vibration analysis company, could possibly be a good thing. But, it was a weak protest because Bad Ass Amy has wonder woman wrist cuffs, and a samurai sword, and it’s hard not to listen to a nice lady with wonder woman wrist cuffs…and a samurai sword.
While I was muddling my way through this delightful episode of internal turmoil, trying desperately to focus all my attention on Bad Ass Amy, a friend asked if I would like to do research for some videos she was producing for a non-profit organization. It just so happens that “researching” things is one of my top 5 favorite things to do, AND the videos were promoting a non-profit organization that I DO know something about, and care about.
We did the videos, and started to work on other projects. With her oodles of experience, reputable connections, and passion for promoting causes (that just so happen to be important to me as well), she started her own company. She asked me, and a few others to join her, and now I am building an artsy and producer-y repertoire. I have a LOT to learn from her about producing, and we have a lot to do, but I think Bad Ass Amy gets to win this one. Maybe getting laid off from the machinery vibration analysis company wasn’t such a bad thing after all. 🙂 Also, I get to end a story with the phrase “it wasn’t so bad, after all” 😀