I’ve been experiencing blogger’s block lately, mostly because I spend so much time trying to figure out how to craft a post that it is humorous and uplifting, and doesn’t ruffle anyone’s feathers. Finding the right balance can be difficult when things get stressful.
My husband is an engineer in the oil and gas industry. When the price of oil dropped, a lot of people in that industry got laid off, and unfortunately, he was one of them. Then, we had a baby. Coincidentally, the non-profit I work for lost a great deal of funding, and has closed for the time-being. Things have been stressful.
But, it’s not the events that matter, it’s the way we respond to them. I have responded to the stress of this situation much better than I think I would have in the past. Had I been faced with this situation 5 years ago, I would have found myself living and breathing sandwich cookies and generic ice-cream. But I’m not, so that’s good.
Instead, I misunderstood an assignment for an online class I am taking in graphic design, and I re-discovered that I like to draw.
I used to draw a lot. Especially in High School. I used to feel bad because I had friends who were in “Advanced Placement” classes, and I was in “Advanced Placement” Art. I was grateful to have gotten in, but I also felt like an imposter and was extremely intimidated by the extraordinary talent of the other students. I let my fear of criticism and my crappy self esteem get the best of me, and I quit.
It’s many years later, and I’ve come to realize that, that way of thinking is crap. I would not encourage someone else to quit because of those things, so it doesn’t make sense for me to do that to myself, either. I suppose I’m ready to encounter the criticism and negative self-talk now, in a way I wasn’t ready for then.
I decided to make it a goal for myself to draw a face a day from a photograph for 7 days. I do have 2 so far … and 5 more to go. 🙂
Rather than completely giving in to my blogger’s block, I’m drawing it instead.